Finally back!!! think its time to do some recap and organising of things that happened throughout the semester. today is really the big day for me. having completed the last paper finally, went shopping and bought a really cute bag that i'm not sure i really go with it. haha. and came home to pack my room. cleared everything, new year coming people.!!! haha

don't realy know what got into me this sem, hmmm... can't really say that there's anything wrong, i rather enjoy this sem alot... think i enjoyed too much thats why. even ger ger commented that i'm too playful. yeah i think i am, and i think i know why. all of a sudden i have nothing on hand to occupy me accept play. all play! even to the extent that i went to malaysia over the long weekend just before my study period, and people, in case some do not know, this sem i so kiasu to go take an extra module totalling to 6 modules that all are examinable!! haha, oh and i even went for the jay chow's concert on friday night immediately after my history paper, and i have a core module on the coming monday. this time i feel the concert is much better than the previous, maybe because this time its slightly better seats. but truth to say i went there and the most i enjoyed was looking at the crowd, the glow sticks in the dark thats moving according to the rhythm. its really really very impressive, imagine how it feels to be up there and all these cheers and people are here just for you. even when i'm not up there the impact is of such intensity liao. songs, i'm fine with it, the usual sort lo but this time many fast paced songs that i don't quite like. but i enjoy his unplug and his instrumental performance, the chinese flute and the piano, especially him and the other guy si shou lian tan. but the first impact came when 2 drummers and a deejay had a joint perfomance in between interval when the singer went to change.. overall not bad given the limited no of concerts i went to.. if only i went for the jeff and sky wu's concert.

the melaka trip was fun, swam everyday in the dirty swimming pool to the extent that my hair was so dry when i came back, attempted to study during the night facing the sea but didn't last long. went shopping and bought this huge gigantic jacket that i really like. ride on the pony, walk by the beach alone (its not romantic cause its crowded and the beach was even dirtier than that of singapore's but they have nice shells), sang ktv (or rather listened to my uncle and auntie singing old songs that are really nice, they have nice voices), ignored my small little cousin jian yi who's supposedly very cute when she wants to be but at times she's really non-tolerable. but yeah she's really cute at times when she wants to. the first 5 mins i give her sth nice to do like sitting at my study table to draw on the newspaper and not disturbing her ah chin jie jie to study. after that i have to prevent her from drawing on my course pack......

before the melaka trip another big havoc event that happened to me was my birthday. i really really am very touched, every year there will be nice little surprises. not only for me, but for everyone. ger ger and her so touching video(i'll bring them for you tmr ger ger) and the lock in the store, stella and her sauve little boy boy and the hide-and-seek at the mrt station, kaiwen and her drunk birthday celebration and the drawing books that we all had a hand in making. we had so much fun!!!!! this year my birthday was.... shall i say my first step into adulthood. firstly, its my 20th bdae, secondly i put on make-up ( haha i did put on make up before but not solely for going out la), thirdly i stayed out real late after drinking. and everyone i believe who came and stayed taht day are thinking that i'm a real alcoholic who spend most of my time drinking and drinking and drinking. I'm not. gals, please say sth!!!! i need to salvage my reputation!!!! trust me, this matter has been on my mind for a long time liao. i think i really ruined the image i had in the past. the gal who frequent the library, the guai guai gal who go home straight from school...ok that night was not totally on drinking, but actually majority of it, cause its my birthday. you know what i mean.

that day seemed to be rather hectic for me, going around places. first went to give tuition, than went junction 8 to accompany my friend who's really bored, than met an old friend who wanted to borrow my school uniform. than came home to get ready and meet stella and meiqi. they came over to dress me up. and dress me up they did. stella chose my clothes (quite limited), meiqi came and we started make up. i was such an idiot. am i NOT a girl or what.... it was disastrous which ever things i tried, so everything was done by stella and meiqi for me. thank you gals!! next time i promise i'll try on my own and let you all grade, just try and not to fail me when that comes. after taht due to my incompetence, we were late, and so we took a cab down to the meeting place where i assume will only have kaiwen and at most one other surprise guest. and yeah, i saw a whole group of them there sitting nicely dressed, around the long table waiting for me. the first time i had makle-up etc etc etc. so my first reaction was to run and run i did. but i was captured and pulled back by meiqi and stella and shenghui( this lengthy guy about 4 years my senior). argh, imagine how red my face went...... even redder than my blusher. i was stuttering and not myself the whole night. and whats more that stupid gal that so wonderful kaiwen put me right smacked infront of all the guys!!!! haha, gal, you desperately want to see me chu chou is it. i can't handle that type of situation at all lo given my present capability. i'll sort of go 'high', as in donig things and saying things i don't usually do and its not because of anything but rather i was uncomfortable with the situation. wasn't prepared la. but its really an eye-opener. haha. anyway the sitting position i smell some political play in it. not really random sitting....
after that we went walk walk, took a bus down to esplanade. its a whole troop of us, about 10 over moving along the road, walking along the sheare's bridge and along the way small surprises.... very very sweet and touching surprises. firstly, my good old joanna came. oh, how i missed her and the good old convent days. she just appeared out of no where. haha. then outside esplanade we 'bumped' into boo and xuan rong. they came consecutively and one was in all white the next in total black. its like this, i saw boo, shook hands with him, talking to him, than i turned over and suddenly i see this black mass came charging at me. haha, thats xuan rong. after that knowing what sort of influence he is, well he brought the whole troupe of us into fullerton hotel, the small pub upstairs for a drink. wow wow... wooo..hooo... we distributed part of the cake there, as in gave a slice to each of them who have to leave earlier, sort of as a sourvenior. haha. than we left there and ate the rest of the cake outside the hotel while the guys settle the account. then, thinking no one would join in but the usual few, we went on to another pub at clarke quay, on recommendation of that stupid thing. yeah we drank and talked and drank and talked. its not really drinking alot la, people although i mentioned "drank and....drank..." its really not alot. we were talking most of the time and the 3 jugs were divided among 10 of us. at about 2am, we left for home.

that occured during october. from august to october, nothing much really happened except for cha dian. followed by qing gong yan, then small badminton and ktv sessions with the crew. i think we get along really well. haha. and i starting to really like singing jeff chang's songs. oh, and in between all these events, i went for jeff's signature session at j8. that was the thing i wrote that i got a little dian dao. haha. he has realy nice warm large hands. although before me many others have already held it. hmmm... qing gong yan is another crazy event that happend. qutie fun... i think i wrote sth on it liao, so not going to touch on it. but overall, yeah i think i led a crazy fun-filled semester. but not really conducive for studying. i'll use this coming month to really settle down, think about things, do work, exercise, have a life! and settle stuff, and meet up with friends. and also really refocus my life again. the term was fun but i feel rather aimless. after the whole thing its all very nice memories, memories i can hold to and think about it when i am old, memories to fill my lonely moments. but they will be as they are memories. looking back, i really should tell myself, what the hell was that. totally lack of discipline. i felt totally horrible during my exam period. i just couldn'g settle down. its the first time in my life that the feeling lasted so long, and during that time, i'm not feeling really guilty at least guilyt enough for me to put myself back in place. it really sucks during that time... it really did..i promise myself, its never going to happen again, but i'm not going to miss out any fun so rem to still chio me. i just need to refocus my things and thoughts again.put things back into balance. what tipped it i can't pin point... and i may sound quite gua zhang,.. hmmm.. but how to say, all of a sudden sometime during this sem, sth went wrong, and i start to feel wrong. when i decided to go melaka, its an attempt to right somethings given a change of environment, away from all my contacts, and in midst my loved ones... think it did help... but still need time. maybe writing this does help. at least i sorted some thoughts out. thrashed some details out. straightened my thoughts.. i totally shun away from this page for ard 2 months already cause i can't write down anything. at a lost... now i think i'm back, and should be able to crap some more. long long pieces like this thats boring everyone with the details whoever can still hold on till now.. yeay!!! finally holidays...!!